I Fell Off The Wagon, Then Got Run Over
- By Emily Bishop
- May 4, 2018
- 3 min read
Stay on track! Don't give up, just one step at a time, and you can do better if you just try! How many times have we all heard this crap over and over before? We (your trainers) say it to you on the regular, your teachers, coaches, parents, basically anyone who truly does have your best interest at heart will attempt this motivation to keep you headed in the right direction. What about the issues that require motivation or a swift kick in the ass that is needed when your heart and mind just don't match up? Where is the room for the motivation that goes beyond the damn memes come from?
The inner dialogue of your self is a menace. It's a snarky, short, ill tempered pain when you're in a place. It can be the one thing, the one entity, that can keep you from your obligations, friends, workouts, healthy habits of any kind, and mentally, the inner dialogue will wreak havoc on your heart as well. I am hoping that by now most of you are shaking your head 'yes' in aggreance becasue I know we have ALL been there before. Now, my hope is to have a space for you all to feel as if: it's ok, no one will judge you for this feeling, regret is an ass, you can beat this, you will be able to get up and do it again, you will be able to take it one step at a time again, and you will get back to not giving up again.
See what I did there? Motivation. Point being, try as you might, this IS the EXACT type of catalyst we need to stick to the path that we know brings us happiness and quality of life. We can't escape it, if you have a conscience as well as people surrounding you who have your back in that way. Your heart and mind might fight it for a bit, but I want to encourage you all to maybe consider letting go just a small bit. This small bit could be the one tear in the seems of your inner dialogue that has been sewn shut for days, weeks, years etc. Once it's open, it can be so satisfying-ly torn open to the freedom of feeling like yourself again.
I recently was in this place, man I hate that place. I am coming off an injury of my elbow, still cannot really do a push up to save my life, but I am making it work. I also lost all motivation to stay on track with my healthy eating, and the thought of going to the gym to workout for myself was just annoying; I mean, the list just kept on growing. I knew all along that what I was doing was self sabotaging though. I believe that to be the worst part for me personally. Knowing that the place I was in was not where all my progress was supposed to take me, instead a place I put myself in. I can't truly pin point the exact moment that it all changed, I believe it was more like a slow progression, and before I knew it, I was out of the game.
So, here I am, in a place of awareness, a beautifully uncomfortable place, a place that keeps urging me to move forward, careful steps and planned out steps, so that I don't just throw my hands up again. I want to also say that I miss you knockouts so much! I am so sorry I have been in this place that took me so far away. Be on the look out for our newest collective coming soon, new workouts, and an opportunity to have Hannah and I custom create a summer workout just for you!! Great things are to come, and I thank all of you for just being here!
Love, Emily
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